My 100th Post..
I asked YL, "Haiz, can I just be normal person?"
YL: "It is like PK asking if he can be a normal person lo."
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"Maybe 'thought that 'understood you correctly?
Then you want to explain every single sentence you make?"
I paused. Then.
My answer would be forever yes.
Especially ever more.
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Misunderstanding is god of destruction.
What you missed could be either fatality or answerable. - cranberries_empty
I learned that the one of the toughest lessons is when you give your heart wrongly.
When it becomes intractability.
Misunderstanding has the power to lead. Even if it's mislead.
But the worst fact:
It behaves like 2 monologues on a single train track.
It goes nowhere and gets nowhere done.
So try to track back.
You will see an answer in what you might have missed.
Someone has been doing that for the people consistently.
I think that Jesus was and is the most misunderstood person.
In all His power, He had to resort to parables.
And explain the signs and wonders.
Because they were too instant for any understanding.
And strangely:
There is so much to learn from the most misunderstood person in the world.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
I hope you be remembered for trying out different methods.
A new Word over my life.
Thanks to Pastor for speaking
"Beautiful.
Wonderfully and fearfully made.
Walk with Abba Father to the ends of the world.
Walk with Abba Father for the rest of life."
After she said that, tears flowed like never before.
Being accepted makes a big difference.
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Eujean spoke to me.
"Thank you for your methods.
Thank you for your roots.
Thank you for your being alone."
"Melvin, by choice, You do forgo the result if the root of it was not truth.
In that you are a seeker of truth, trier of methods.
I hope you be remembered for trying out different methods.
Now I know why what Janis said means so much to you."
Once again.
"A leader braves the storm and creates new paths for people to walk on by smoothly.
My leader did that."
Thanks to Pastor for speaking
"Beautiful.
Wonderfully and fearfully made.
Walk with Abba Father to the ends of the world.
Walk with Abba Father for the rest of life."
After she said that, tears flowed like never before.
Being accepted makes a big difference.
____________________________
Eujean spoke to me.
"Thank you for your methods.
Thank you for your roots.
Thank you for your being alone."
"Melvin, by choice, You do forgo the result if the root of it was not truth.
In that you are a seeker of truth, trier of methods.
I hope you be remembered for trying out different methods.
Now I know why what Janis said means so much to you."
Once again.
"A leader braves the storm and creates new paths for people to walk on by smoothly.
My leader did that."
The Branch is still able to bear Fruit.
Dear Pastor,
"areas of renewal"
Personal Renewal:
I want to be crisis-proficient. Somehow I feel that there will be always an incoming crisis whether in my personal life or ministry. During this season of accepting new people into the cell group, I realized that I have been called to deal with so much crisis "mismanagement". This is especially true when I feel weakest this year. All the hurts I sustained this half of the year is supposed to make me more "skillful". It is this intersection that I become the most involved. Sometimes, it even reflects upon my own life.
Since I cannot beat it, I might as well filter it down. A R Bernard said, "God’s pruning is to make it more fruitful." Which I feel that it is precisely where I have been tested consistently. He went on to describe about the Fruit is observed on the Branches and not on the Vine. This is the point that I feel that I have been put to bear fruits. It may be a crisis season, but the Branch is still able to bear Fruit.
Relational Renewal:
The ones that I allow access to me are really those whom I want to be identified with. For example, I allow a lot of access to Huizhen and Jimmy. It is really more than a choice or a garnishing; it is a learning process from them. I feel that their presence reaffirm a lot on Faithfulness and Integrity. They are people who are very forgiving and uplifting.
I would fight war with those who run the race. We need those people who are being included by the Heroes of Faith from Hebrews 12. Being a minister, it is easy to be consumed by power and favoritism. It becomes important for me remember the healthy intimacy towards those who reassumes my basic needs. It is easy for me to forget my First Love which should have always been my most basic relationship. In like manner, I need to reposition the crucial basics of those who have consistently uplifted me.
Purpose Renewal:
Reexamining the value of every activity in my life, I want to reposition myself in the area of raising more leaders which I have kind of neglected. Ever since last year in N182, I have been doing my best to communicate with the members, new or longer. But the one thing I have been a little slack over would be the disciples that I have in my group.
I want to repent and reposition this area of imparting into more people around me. Recently, I have received many encouragements (from zone and overseas mission trips) from people who have been updating themselves about my life. I need to make full use of the gift I have received from God: Open Doors. I could make use of myself more faithfully. The words and photography have become my tools of encouragement. I want to avail myself to raising good people who can be used for greater works in the longevity of the Kingdom of God.
Structural Renewal:
When pastor shared about "Don't confuse Movement with Progression", I felt checked. N182 has been praised by some leaders as a 'happy cell group' but one of my own fears is that it is becoming an activity center without a spiritual camp. I decided to spend more time on personally meeting up each and every connect group within and share on the topic of Revelation and Dreams.
I really am not sure whether I have done a good job because this is my first time having a mass discipleship other than regular cell group meetings. But to go into every detail fancied by the members' thoughts, I did feel a strange empowerment. I thoroughly enjoyed smiling and talking to each one of them about the Revelations that God has placed over them. Like a structure that needs renewing cells, the Bible says without Visions and Dreams, people perish. By undertaking their Revelations, we are revealing their Vision and Dream tunnels, and there is new life upon the cell group proper. I am already beginning to see the people are slowly getting happier and excited about living life. And this is the real activity of leading cell group: Life is good.
Cultural Renewal:
Pastor started by saying "There is a new shift of the impact of the organization on society." I know that I want to be part of that shift of impact. But it would require Responsibility Thinking.
While I was reading on Victor Lim Fei's writings ever since Pastor Kong's saga, I realized his personal efforts of going against a misinformed media. But more than that, I saw Responsibility Thinking on the inside. He was taking ownership of the situation.
Personally, I am not sure how I can create Cultural Renewal but I want to dare myself in the area of Responsibility Thinking. My new career demands a lot of Responsibility Thinking, especially in the area of leadership and project management. And Moses experienced the same thing, having to "own" God's people as His own. But this is it with dealing the Babylonian or Worldly culture. The first initiative is to "own" or proclaim ownership over the lost.
If you have read this far, I thank you.
Melvin
"areas of renewal"
Personal Renewal:
I want to be crisis-proficient. Somehow I feel that there will be always an incoming crisis whether in my personal life or ministry. During this season of accepting new people into the cell group, I realized that I have been called to deal with so much crisis "mismanagement". This is especially true when I feel weakest this year. All the hurts I sustained this half of the year is supposed to make me more "skillful". It is this intersection that I become the most involved. Sometimes, it even reflects upon my own life.
Since I cannot beat it, I might as well filter it down. A R Bernard said, "God’s pruning is to make it more fruitful." Which I feel that it is precisely where I have been tested consistently. He went on to describe about the Fruit is observed on the Branches and not on the Vine. This is the point that I feel that I have been put to bear fruits. It may be a crisis season, but the Branch is still able to bear Fruit.
Relational Renewal:
The ones that I allow access to me are really those whom I want to be identified with. For example, I allow a lot of access to Huizhen and Jimmy. It is really more than a choice or a garnishing; it is a learning process from them. I feel that their presence reaffirm a lot on Faithfulness and Integrity. They are people who are very forgiving and uplifting.
I would fight war with those who run the race. We need those people who are being included by the Heroes of Faith from Hebrews 12. Being a minister, it is easy to be consumed by power and favoritism. It becomes important for me remember the healthy intimacy towards those who reassumes my basic needs. It is easy for me to forget my First Love which should have always been my most basic relationship. In like manner, I need to reposition the crucial basics of those who have consistently uplifted me.
Purpose Renewal:
Reexamining the value of every activity in my life, I want to reposition myself in the area of raising more leaders which I have kind of neglected. Ever since last year in N182, I have been doing my best to communicate with the members, new or longer. But the one thing I have been a little slack over would be the disciples that I have in my group.
I want to repent and reposition this area of imparting into more people around me. Recently, I have received many encouragements (from zone and overseas mission trips) from people who have been updating themselves about my life. I need to make full use of the gift I have received from God: Open Doors. I could make use of myself more faithfully. The words and photography have become my tools of encouragement. I want to avail myself to raising good people who can be used for greater works in the longevity of the Kingdom of God.
Structural Renewal:
When pastor shared about "Don't confuse Movement with Progression", I felt checked. N182 has been praised by some leaders as a 'happy cell group' but one of my own fears is that it is becoming an activity center without a spiritual camp. I decided to spend more time on personally meeting up each and every connect group within and share on the topic of Revelation and Dreams.
I really am not sure whether I have done a good job because this is my first time having a mass discipleship other than regular cell group meetings. But to go into every detail fancied by the members' thoughts, I did feel a strange empowerment. I thoroughly enjoyed smiling and talking to each one of them about the Revelations that God has placed over them. Like a structure that needs renewing cells, the Bible says without Visions and Dreams, people perish. By undertaking their Revelations, we are revealing their Vision and Dream tunnels, and there is new life upon the cell group proper. I am already beginning to see the people are slowly getting happier and excited about living life. And this is the real activity of leading cell group: Life is good.
Cultural Renewal:
Pastor started by saying "There is a new shift of the impact of the organization on society." I know that I want to be part of that shift of impact. But it would require Responsibility Thinking.
While I was reading on Victor Lim Fei's writings ever since Pastor Kong's saga, I realized his personal efforts of going against a misinformed media. But more than that, I saw Responsibility Thinking on the inside. He was taking ownership of the situation.
Personally, I am not sure how I can create Cultural Renewal but I want to dare myself in the area of Responsibility Thinking. My new career demands a lot of Responsibility Thinking, especially in the area of leadership and project management. And Moses experienced the same thing, having to "own" God's people as His own. But this is it with dealing the Babylonian or Worldly culture. The first initiative is to "own" or proclaim ownership over the lost.
If you have read this far, I thank you.
Melvin
Happiness is expectation met.
Seriously..
I am fully Biopsychosociospiritual being..
Within 48 hours, I would have attended 7 meetings.
- Part Scientist
- Part Manager
- Part Father
- Part Discipler
- Part Church Worker
Eigene was saying that normal people rest on Sat and Sun and work on Mon and Tue.
She works on Sat and Sun and rest on alternate days. So every Monday is Happy Day.
I work from Monday to Sunday. I think only meal-times are spared.
And then, boss asked me along for lunch meeting discussions..
Last week, boss asked, "Can you come out on Sunday or Monday morning meeting 730am? It is urgent."
A new excitement.
Discipleship, sermons, writings, discussions, programmings, even taking care of overseas delegates.
Someone just asked me, "Are you a church staff?"
Yeah, part-time.
So they stop asking me more questions.
Next question, "How come you don't sleep?"
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Someone asked me last night, "How do you segment-ize whether you are happy?"
When your ways are committed to the Lord.
That means your (ways) commitment is issued with contentment.
Happiness is expectation met.
Contentment is having met unexpectations.
I want to say.. Everything is happening un-expectedly for me.
Holistic or not.
I am not happy.
Please understand.
Just the going gets Happy.
"Where there are broken hearts, there you find God."
Not the Happy gets going.
I do not know where this is going.
I just told someone close, "I am your Archangel. Praying war with you."
Going to where Giants are going.
I am fully Biopsychosociospiritual being..
Within 48 hours, I would have attended 7 meetings.
- Part Scientist
- Part Manager
- Part Father
- Part Discipler
- Part Church Worker
Eigene was saying that normal people rest on Sat and Sun and work on Mon and Tue.
She works on Sat and Sun and rest on alternate days. So every Monday is Happy Day.
I work from Monday to Sunday. I think only meal-times are spared.
And then, boss asked me along for lunch meeting discussions..
Last week, boss asked, "Can you come out on Sunday or Monday morning meeting 730am? It is urgent."
A new excitement.
Discipleship, sermons, writings, discussions, programmings, even taking care of overseas delegates.
Someone just asked me, "Are you a church staff?"
Yeah, part-time.
So they stop asking me more questions.
Next question, "How come you don't sleep?"
______________________________________
Someone asked me last night, "How do you segment-ize whether you are happy?"
When your ways are committed to the Lord.
That means your (ways) commitment is issued with contentment.
Happiness is expectation met.
Contentment is having met unexpectations.
I want to say.. Everything is happening un-expectedly for me.
Holistic or not.
I am not happy.
Please understand.
Just the going gets Happy.
"Where there are broken hearts, there you find God."
Not the Happy gets going.
I do not know where this is going.
I just told someone close, "I am your Archangel. Praying war with you."
Going to where Giants are going.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
God sings to them?
I am so inspired today.
A few nights ago, people mistaken me to be a designer and a free lance photographer when I walked into the room.
Some nights ago, "Why do you like strange old things?"
Because someone has put in effort to survive the test of time.
It is not about sight sometimes. It is about a feel from the past.
It isn't a design flaw. It has seen and survived so that we have it today.
Last night, "You haven't changed. :)"
Because from the inside, I haven't lose hope.
I wrote these out.
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A Lover with love on Your lips and Grace on Your tongue.
In death there's forgiveness, and forgiveness calls on a new life.
Teach me how to love as much as You teach me how to die.
God has Hands that circle us like a Wedding Band.
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A new thought.
Have you ever wonder the songs you written..
God sings to them?
A few nights ago, people mistaken me to be a designer and a free lance photographer when I walked into the room.
Some nights ago, "Why do you like strange old things?"
Because someone has put in effort to survive the test of time.
It is not about sight sometimes. It is about a feel from the past.
It isn't a design flaw. It has seen and survived so that we have it today.
Last night, "You haven't changed. :)"
Because from the inside, I haven't lose hope.
I wrote these out.
________________________________
A Lover with love on Your lips and Grace on Your tongue.
In death there's forgiveness, and forgiveness calls on a new life.
Teach me how to love as much as You teach me how to die.
God has Hands that circle us like a Wedding Band.
________________________________
A new thought.
Have you ever wonder the songs you written..
God sings to them?
This is how I see you and me and everyone
Song facts about Iris..
1- Lead singer Johnny Rzeznik wrote this. He had a terrible case of writer's block before coming up with this. He even went to a psychiatrist for help.
2- This is about a person with an invisible identity who no one understands. Then, he finds true love. He wants his true love to know that he exists and that she is the only person in the world who can understand and love him - hence the last line, "I just want you to know who I am." The title means this is how I see you and me and everyone.
3- The name "Iris" was inspired by a Country singer named Iris DeMent, whose name Rzeznik came across while reading a magazine. This was confirmed in a 1999 interview with Goo's bass player Robbie Takac in Addicted To Noise.
4- This was nominated for Grammys in the categories Song Of The Year, Record Of The Near, and Best Pop Performance By Duo Or Group.
It didn't win any of them.
1- Lead singer Johnny Rzeznik wrote this. He had a terrible case of writer's block before coming up with this. He even went to a psychiatrist for help.
2- This is about a person with an invisible identity who no one understands. Then, he finds true love. He wants his true love to know that he exists and that she is the only person in the world who can understand and love him - hence the last line, "I just want you to know who I am." The title means this is how I see you and me and everyone.
3- The name "Iris" was inspired by a Country singer named Iris DeMent, whose name Rzeznik came across while reading a magazine. This was confirmed in a 1999 interview with Goo's bass player Robbie Takac in Addicted To Noise.
4- This was nominated for Grammys in the categories Song Of The Year, Record Of The Near, and Best Pop Performance By Duo Or Group.
It didn't win any of them.
What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper?
"Hey aren't you that guy..."
Say what you want.
I remembered watching this movie during one of my truant expeditions.
The girl beside me was crying.
And she hated me for NOT crying.
I was puzzled.
Really.
We argued that day. Quite badly because it was firm.
I cannot understand the crying.
What was happening to me everyday was apparently a brand new experience for her.
A sacrifice is never from the conditional.
Only the cost is.
A sacrifice is always stamped out from willingness.
Because the exchange is high rated and needs to be overcome.
Simply put.
If you were given this opportunity, would you let go of everything?
The truth is.
Most people would not.
And that is why it is easy to feel touched.
For the courage that you do not have, you retrieve it from others.
But for those who have the courage.
We have started counting the cost to pay up.
Embarking on that makes you less emotional.
But that courage must be mixed with Truth.
Courage without Truth is just blindness.
And you can check Courage.
By reaffirming it with other angels who will go through the likes, like you.
Just like the Angel who fell in this story.
Seth.
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Seth: You're an excellent doctor.
Maggie: How do you know?
Seth: I have a feeling.
Maggie: That's pretty flimsy evidence.
Seth: Close your eyes. It's just for a moment.
Seth: What am I doing?
Maggie: You're... touching me.
Seth: Touch. How do you know?
Maggie: Because, I feel it.
Seth: You should trust that. You don't trust it enough.
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Maggie: What happened?
Seth: Free will.
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Seth: The little girl asked me if she could be an angel.
Cassiel: They all want wings.
Seth: I never know what to say.
Cassiel: Tell them the truth. Angels aren't human. We were never human.
Seth: What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper?
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Seth: Why do people cry?
Maggie: What do you mean?
Seth: I mean, what happens physically?
Maggie: Well... umm... tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye and when you have an emotion they overact and create tears.
Seth: Why? Why do they overact?
Maggie: [pause] I don't know.
Seth: Maybe... maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful, and your body weeps.
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Nathaniel Messinger: Listen, kid: he gave these bozos the greatest gift in the universe - you think he didn't give it to us, too?
Seth: Which gift?
Nathaniel Messinger: Free will, brother. Free will.
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Maggie Rice: We fight for people's lives in here, right?
Jordan Ferris: Uh-huh.
Maggie Rice: Don't you ever wonder who it is we're fighting with?
Say what you want.
I remembered watching this movie during one of my truant expeditions.
The girl beside me was crying.
And she hated me for NOT crying.
I was puzzled.
Really.
We argued that day. Quite badly because it was firm.
I cannot understand the crying.
What was happening to me everyday was apparently a brand new experience for her.
A sacrifice is never from the conditional.
Only the cost is.
A sacrifice is always stamped out from willingness.
Because the exchange is high rated and needs to be overcome.
Simply put.
If you were given this opportunity, would you let go of everything?
The truth is.
Most people would not.
And that is why it is easy to feel touched.
For the courage that you do not have, you retrieve it from others.
But for those who have the courage.
We have started counting the cost to pay up.
Embarking on that makes you less emotional.
But that courage must be mixed with Truth.
Courage without Truth is just blindness.
And you can check Courage.
By reaffirming it with other angels who will go through the likes, like you.
Just like the Angel who fell in this story.
Seth.
_________________________________
Seth: You're an excellent doctor.
Maggie: How do you know?
Seth: I have a feeling.
Maggie: That's pretty flimsy evidence.
Seth: Close your eyes. It's just for a moment.
Seth: What am I doing?
Maggie: You're... touching me.
Seth: Touch. How do you know?
Maggie: Because, I feel it.
Seth: You should trust that. You don't trust it enough.
_________________________________
Maggie: What happened?
Seth: Free will.
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Seth: The little girl asked me if she could be an angel.
Cassiel: They all want wings.
Seth: I never know what to say.
Cassiel: Tell them the truth. Angels aren't human. We were never human.
Seth: What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper?
_________________________________
Seth: Why do people cry?
Maggie: What do you mean?
Seth: I mean, what happens physically?
Maggie: Well... umm... tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye and when you have an emotion they overact and create tears.
Seth: Why? Why do they overact?
Maggie: [pause] I don't know.
Seth: Maybe... maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful, and your body weeps.
_________________________________
Nathaniel Messinger: Listen, kid: he gave these bozos the greatest gift in the universe - you think he didn't give it to us, too?
Seth: Which gift?
Nathaniel Messinger: Free will, brother. Free will.
_________________________________
Maggie Rice: We fight for people's lives in here, right?
Jordan Ferris: Uh-huh.
Maggie Rice: Don't you ever wonder who it is we're fighting with?
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